So ya...

So I am now unemployed and just hangn out... hence why I havent posted anything. But I am just doin what I want. I am sure I will get bored and wanna start looking for a new job... but I will deal with that when it comes...

Hairspray

So Hairspray rocked my world! I loved it! I can't wait to get it on DVD. I am just glad that they are coming out with musicals in this day and age. So everyone needs to see it!

Can it be too good to be true?

So I think it is offical, I am moving in with Becky and her 2 kids! I am excited... and nervous. This could go either way, it could work great and I could develope this awesome bond with my sister in-law and nieces, or it could be a disaster and ruin our relationship forever... hun... scary.

Anywho! We submitted our paperwork yesturday so we will know if we get apprroved by the end of today or early tomorrow. I ran my credit scores at work cause I am cool like and have access to those programs... anywho... well to say the least for a 19 yro girl I am damn proud of them! Now I just have to keep them high and maybe get a few cards paid off and I should be sitting REALLY pretty for my life.

The apartment we are looking into is at 19th Ave and Bell Rd. It's called Bell Cove, and it's under new management so they are revamping EVERYTHING! They kicked out all of their tendents and are screening them to make sure they are the best apt complex int he area. They only have 50 out of 200 apts open right now, they are remodeling the rest of them. I am really excited about this place. It just felt like home and we felt welcome. The apt that we would be getting it a 2 bedroom and 2 bathroom at 935 Sq. ft. We have our own full size washer and dryer that come in the unit. And outside the unit that we would be getting is 2 big lawns that are covered in big nice trees with tons of shade. So thats perfect for the kids to go and play.



I am REALLY excited about this, and I can just hope for the best.

Just a little something!

So I ran across this convo that I saved from a while back... I thought it was cute and sweet... so I decided to share! Enjoy...

ShizzamG= ME!
andersman04= Bill!



ShizzamG (12:29:20 pm): so are you glad to be back in taji?

andersman04 (12:29:37 pm): yeah I got it made

ShizzamG (12:29:45 pm): haha why is that?

andersman04 (12:30:51 pm): I work day shift, me and two females, and go to dinner with Brooke, Gomez, Ibarra, Hooks, LT. Tomas, and Rivera.

andersman04 (12:30:54 pm): all females

andersman04 (12:30:58 pm): I’m a pimp

ShizzamG (12:31:08 pm): haha nice

ShizzamG (12:31:13 pm): should I be jealous

andersman04 (12:31:32 pm): yeah but they don’t come near to matching you

andersman04 (12:31:39 pm): they are like my sisters

ShizzamG (12:31:42 pm): awww honey

andersman04 (12:31:44 pm): you are my love

andersman04 (12:32:20 pm): I would be the stupidest person in the world to screw up what I got

ShizzamG (12:32:32 pm): I love you so much

andersman04 (12:32:48 pm): I love you too

Michael Buble is my life! (haha!)

Dear Lord Chelle and I saw Michael Buble in concert last night and I don't think I can express just how awesome he is live. He is so funny and just loves to goof around. He gets so into his music and you can really tell he just loves what he does. I found this clip and this just explains what he is like throughout his whole concert!

I Blame Chelle!

So I went to see Harry Potter last night... so good! I really liked it, I didn't read the book but oh well! I LOVE the movies!

Seeing the midnight showing then proceeded to make me late for work... about 30 mins late to be exact. Haha! So I have 3 alarms on my phone one is set for 6am and one is set for 630am and then one is set for 700am. When the 600am one goes off that means I need to get up and take a shower... (I turned it off this morning...) And then when the 630am one goes off that means I need be done with my shower and hair(Slept through that one...) THEN when the 700am one goes off I need to be out the door(When that one went off I thought it was the 600am on so i went back to sleep for 30 more mins till my sister came in and said, "Are you going to work today?") Awesome! So ya I was 30 mins late to work... oh well!

Life must go on...

I cannot seem to get back in the groove of things... I am trying to. I know once I get back in the swing of things time will fly. But here's the problem I don't want to. I kinda feel that but moving on and continuing with my life without Bill it's like I am erasing him. I don't know I think I'm just crazy but it's how I feel. I miss him...

Gone... again

Well he is gone... again. I am already in pieces and can't wait for him to hold me again. I know we are in the home stretch here but I just don't to feel alone anymore. I need him by my side to make me whole. I need him here to get me through the hard times. I need him here to make me laugh when all I wanna do is cry. I need him here to love me.

This leave has been a whirlwind of emotions. We have gone from complete bliss to screaming at each other, but in the end we both come out ok and loving each other more. During this time apart we have both grown so much and all for the better. It was very obvious, but this is what I love about us being so young and so in love. We get to grow up together, we get to learn new things together and experience them together.

My heart and soul is just in pieces right now. This goodbye was much, much, MUCH worse then the first one, for both of us. But we get through it and stay strong. I know that I have to stay strong for Bill and for me.

Bill should be returning home for good (or at least for this deployment) sometime around January. So that will be nice. He will have a month of R&R here in Phoenix, then back to Texas. We are not really sure from there where we will end up. But that's all fun in games for the Army.

So ya... please keep Bill and I in your prayers and pray for a safe return from Iraq. And pray for me to keep it together long enough for him to return safely.

I just want to leave you with this prayer that is close to my heart.

Give me the greatness of heart to see,
The difference between duty and his love for me.
Give me the understanding so that I may know
When duty calls him, he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
To fill the time while he is away.
When he's in a foreign land,
Keep him safe in your loving hand.
And Lord, when duty is in the field,
Please protect him and be his shield.
And Lord, when deployment is so long,
Please stay with me and keep me strong.

Is this the end?

So I am crazy busy will work, and OAR, and everything else... so! This will be my last post for a bit... or at least till Bill goes home... then I should have tons of time to write! So long for now!

My new friend!

This is the newest addition to our house hold, and in case you weren't counting... this is number 3!! Well welcome to the neighborhood, I'll have a fruit basket to you by the end of the week! Enjoy your stay at the scorpion hotel!

Duty Calls

Duty Calls

The time had come to serve his land,
He looked in my eyes and held my hand,
Told me there was something that had to be said,
So I sat there in silence beside him in bed,

"I will carry your picture where ever I go,
And I'll miss you so much you don't even know,
This picture will get me through the good and the bad,
But most of all when I'm feeling sad,

To look in your eyes and forget about war,
And think of the day I'll show up at your door,
To feel the warmth of your sweet kiss,
That sends me into infinite bliss,

To help me forget the bombs and guns,
And the orders I'll be taking from everyone,
To forget about those lonely endless nights,
And all those daytime fire fights,

Not think about looking over my shoulder,
Or that food that by the day will seem to get older,
To forget those stressful day long shifts,
And just remember your sweet lips."

Before he finished my tears started to fall,
He wiped off my cheek and whispered "no more"
He told me be strong and proud of your man,
I'm doing it for you, for me, and our future children,

He held me close slowly calming me down,
Soon his heart beat was the only sound,
I was speechless scared but it felt a sin,
So built up some courage and told him to listen,

"I promise I'll be true to you while you're away,
I'll stay far from negative things people say,
I promise to wait no matter the time,
Days, weeks or years, you'll always be mine,

I meant when I said "Till death do us part",
As long as I live you'll have my heart."

He soon left for the war so far away,
And I've been taking it slow, taking day by day,
Now its been 6 months since my hero has gone,
and days are starting to feel real long,

But I'm keeping my promise just like I said,
And kissing his picture before going to bed,
Keeping him in mind throughout the day,
Standing tall standing proud in all that I say,

Because he's more then just a soldier fighting a war
he's my love, my life and my husband forevermore.
Love you baby!

STRESS!!!!

So I don't think I could get anymore stressed then I am right now. I haven't been able to talk to Bill as much as I used to which makes me sad. But I understand that he is busy and needs to keep his head on track. I just can't wait till July, I can't wait for him to just hug me and hold me. I just can't wait for all the little things people take for granite. I miss him so much...

It is official I am now the state leader for Operation America Rising. Which is a HUGE undertaking! But I just need to make sure that this happens and if that means a bit of added stress for me, then so be it! We have almost got the venue set and once we have then set we should be just fine in everything. Once the venue is set I should be able to delegate more things down to my 7 volunteers and lighten the load from me.

I have been so busy at work! Which is weird, but when I finally have work I have NO motivation at all to do it. So it takes me like 4 hours to do something when is should only take me like 2 hours. Not good... But I'll just blame it on the depression!

I have a therapy appointment on Monday, and then a doctor's appointment on Tuesday. I need to get my dosage of Prozac changed and then I am going to talk to him about me back pains. I just can't handle it anymore. And then Tuesday night I have volleyball, which should be fun. Then no other plans for the week. I will be going to Yuma for Memorial Day weekend. It's Jace's 2ND Birthday! I can't miss that!

OK well I have a million and one things to do right now between work and OAR(Operation America Rising)

Mother's Day!

So I know this is a little late but this is what my family did on Mother's Day...



My mom has been asking for her new Scrapbook room for some time now, so we deiced to make it her Mother's Day present!



We added a counter top along one wall and TONS of storge!



We painted just about every surface my dad would allow us!



We also added a peg board to hang our paper on, now we are just looking like a store!



All in all it came out really good, and I can't wait to scrap in it!

Zen Beans

Just thought I would share my bean Zen Garden... haha this is boredum at its best!

Fashion-gazam!

So I found these shoes yesturday... Aren't they WONDERFUL! I love them!!!

Bill!

A Life Update

Life is slowing moving along, I can't believe that Bill has only been gone for 7 months... it feels like years since I have seen him. I miss him...

Life right now in this moment isn't too bad, I have new friends and some of the best old friends a girl can ask for. But when I start thinking about long term I start getting nervous and stressed out. It's hard for me not to have a plan for my life, and to not know where I will be in a few years. I have no idea and that is terrifying to me. I am a planner I need to plan things ahead of time so I know what to expect, but awesome military life doesn't allow me that privilege.

Kristen will be moving out at the end of July or beginning of August. Which leaves me alone in the apartment for the remainder of our lease, and our lease will be up on September 30. Rochelle has offered for me to move in with her parents, my parents have offered for me to move back in with them, but I am just to unsure of everything... I have so many questions and concerns running through my head at all times about all these different scenarios. If I move in with one of these people, What will I do when Bill comes home from Iraq for good? He has a month leave... do I live with my parents for that month? Do I stay in Rochelle's parents house for that month? How weird would that be... So I don't know... so then I was thinking what if I keep the apartment and re-new the lease... but I don't want to live there by myself... and I really don't want to have to afford to live there by myself.. but I don't want to ask Rochelle to move in because I know she is trying to save money... I just don't know... AHHHHH!!!

Life is too hard I give up...

Well I have a therapy appointment tomorrow with the new therapist, so we will see how that goes, maybe she can help me make a decision... or at least give me the tools to help me make a decision.

I think I have also decided that I am going to start a picture everyday thingy... I just don't know when I will start it...

Is this the last straw?

Jason is in jail... shocker I know!

I am tired... long night last night, I didn't get home about 8:00pm and then watched some TV.

Yay scrapbooking this weekend... I can't wait. And yay sleeping in on Sunday!!!

I can only do so much...

I AM STRESSED!!!!!

I have way too many things on my mind... I just can't wait till things are back to normal.

The letter

Work is so slow!

Well it has been 3 days since I gave Kristen "the letter"... and nothing not a word! I dont know... she came home the other day and started cleaning the kitchen. So maybe she got the hint... I dont know... she is driving me crazy not saying anything!

Well Bill this is the letter:


Kristen,

Our living situation has to change. I know that we are both at fault for it getting this bad. I love you so much and this is such a great opportunity to spend time together. We will never get this chance again. After this we will be going our separate ways and I just want this to change so we can make the most of it.
I don’t think you should have to wait to come home till I am asleep, and I don’t want to come home to empty house and stress all the time. I have been giving this a lot of thought which is stressing me out. I can only handle so much, I can’t be stressing over you and Bill at the same time, that is just too much for me deal with. Therapy and pills can only do so much.
So we need to formulate a plan, a plan for the bills, and for the cleaning. I think if we do that then we would know what is expected of us.
I understand that you don’t make a whole lot of money, but that’s where money managing and cutting back on thing comes in. As far as bills go we will both have to get our own separate money orders and I will no longer be putting it all on my card. Rent needs to be ready and dropped off by at least the 5th. Now for utilities we can still do the money order thing but we have to mail it in which means once we get the bills we have to get the money orders and mail them out right away. I will no longer be putting them on my card.
In regards to the cleaning in the apartment, all I am asking is that you clean up after yourself. It shouldn’t be a big deal if you clean, it should be a normal thing. If you want to divide up the chores and have a set chore list I am game for that.
This is just what I was thinking but I would love to just sit down and discus what you think we should do. I love you and let me know when you want to sit down and talk.

Samantha.


So we will see what happens!

Hooray camping this weekend!

Again!

So the doctor said that I have a stomach infection! Hooray... I am still trying to get over the Intestinal Tract viral Infection!!! And the other one there is nothing we can do but wait.... AWESOME!!!!! Whateva... I am string and will get through this ongoing sickness of mine...

Crapy day!

I am sick...again...

I spent the better part of yesterday running back and fourth from the toilet and my desk... loads of fun! I finally convinced myself that I needed to go home at 4:00pm... and on the way... I had to stop... and the only place I could find to stop was the ghetto Burger King... I am pretty sure there was still pee in the toilet that I threw up in... AWESOME!!! I finally got home around 5:00pm and I just went straight to my bed and sleep. I was up and down again trying to throw up but there was nothing to throw up.. once again AWESOME!!! I finally just fell asleep and didn't wake up till about 6:15am. Which was good because in all the fuss I forgot to set my alarm.


I still feel like crap today... so I am leaving in 10 minutes to go to the doctor. And then who knows... I have to stay at work till 2:00pm the girl covering the phone has a lunch date. But then depending on how I feel I might just go home and rest. We will see what the doctor says...

I am also going to get my dosage of Prozac changed.

Nothing much

Not sure why I am posting anything... nothing is really new...

I have been talking to Bill more which is good.

Tips training was last night... gay... everything I already knew... it's cool... FREE concerts!

Work is stressful and sucks...

I miss Bill...

Kristen's tab is now up to $422.65! Woohoo!

I still haven't talked to her yet but I think I am going to start writing the letter today...

And umm ya..

That's about it...!

What a weekend...

So I left straight from work on Friday and decided to take a new way to Yuma. This way was shorter and much prettier! I had made myself very clear to Sarah that I wanted nothing to do with Jason I didn't even want to see him! I told her that over and over and over again... and what does she do... invites him to dinner with us that night. **sigh** Then on Saturday we woke up early and headed to Sarah's salon so she could paint my toe nails. Then I had a facial appointment that Sarah made me... now let me tell you about this facial! I was in heaven!! She massaged my arms and shoulders and neck and rubbed my face... oh man did it feel good. I love to get massaged and I haven't had a massage since October 12!

I miss Bill...

Anyways... so when I was done I went back to Sarah's house to get Corey so we could go pick up Jace from his Grandpa's house. I love him! He is so freakn cute!!! Once we had him we decided to get some food and kill some time till Sarah got off work, so we went around and looked at used cars for Corey and all that fun stuff. Then headed back to the house so Corey could start getting ready for work. About 1:00pm I went to pick Sarah up and then she showed me this new location they are trying to get for salon. This place was perfect! I really how she gets it. As we were heading home and planning our evening we got a call from Corey saying that work didn't need her to come in... so we went home and picked her up then did a bit of shopping. After Jace's attitude took a turn for the worse we decided to go get a movie and call it a night. We rented "A Night with the King"!!! I love that movie! They all fell asleep but I stayed up and watched the whole thing... :) I made the mistake of trying to sleep in the same room with Jace... not a good idea! I moved and he would wake up and start crying! So I had to pick him up and hold him and rock him back to sleep and after about 5 times of doing this... I went and woke Corey up... So very tired me had to wake up early again... Ryan (Jace's sperm doner) called and wanted to talk and see Jace. So we decided to meet him at the park. We dropped Corey and Jace off... and 10 min late Ryan shows up... He stays for about 30 minutes and doesn't want to talk about anything! GRRRRRR!!!!! Whatever... So then we went to Wal-Mart to get some stuff because we were headed to the river... Then I find out we are going with none other then... JASON! So I got to spend the whole day with Jason and Sarah and Jace and all Jason stupid friends... OK they weren't stupid... just Jason! Then on my way home come to find out I still have Jace's car seat in my car and then the I-10 was shut down!

It was a long weekend... and a lot of me depressed and miss Bill...

I am counting down till June!

Rochelle is 21!!!!

Hahahahaha last night was a good time had by all!

Rochelle got drunk!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

I will be laughing about this night for years to come!

Karaoke Bar + Liquor = an AWESOME time!

I was the DD so no worries...Bill I was a good... ; )

I can't wait till Bill comes home and I get to get him drunk too!! woohoo!!
Be scared Bill ask Chelle I am a little good at getting people drunk... :D
It's a hidden talent of mine... ; )

Surprisingly I am not the least bit tired... which is good I am helping Kristen out tonight at her work... we will see how long I can handle taking direction from her...

I miss you Bill if you read this one...

And Chelle I love you and I am sorry...!

Another poem...

Yet another poam I have come across...

I am a Proud Army Wife
For all of you who wake up in the morning,
lay there for a few moments,
trying to swallow the sick feeling
in the pit of your stomach
as you wonder where your Soldier is,
or how he's doing...this is for you.
For all of you who start a countdown
the minute he leaves,
and continue to until he is back
in your arms again...this is for you.
For all of you who tear up every time
"Far Away" comes on the radio,
or who press repeat when
"Come Home Soon" plays in their car...
this one's for you.
For all of you who see Army billboards,
ads in the paper, or commercials on TV
and next notice the tears rolling down your cheeks,
this is for you.
This is for you.
I am one of you too.
This is for us.
For all the times we sleep
with our phones on the
loudest possible volume,
just as to not miss the
call that just MIGHT come...
For all the times we
roll our eyes when another
girl is depressed because
she hasn't seen her guy in a week...
For all the times we hear our
Soldier's name mentioned out loud,
and are momentarily frozen...
in a trance...in love.
For all the late nights that we spend alone,
cuddling with our stuffed animals,
wearing our Army
sweatshirts and sweatpants,
and clutching the precious dog tags
around our necks...
This one's for us.
We may feel weak on the inside,
but on the outside we're strong.
We may be drowning in tears on the inside,
but on the outside, we are a rock.
We may want to crawl in bed and sleep
until our man comes home, but instead,
we get up and go on with our daily lives
with our men in our hearts.
We may feel like we're slowly
dying with each day we spend
apart from our men, but instead,
we put one foot infront of the other,
and take each day as it comes.
We are strong, and we are proud.
We have more love in our hearts
than we ever thought possible,
and for this, we are thankful.
We are thankful for our men
and also for each other.
We are Army gals, and we
lean on each other.
Alone we are weak, but together,
we are strong.
We help each other, and we survive. . .


I like this one...

Poems...

So I have come across a few poems I would like to share...

::cough::

Loving a SOLDIER isn't
always what they say.
& loving him is a
high price to pay.
It's mostly loving
with nothing to hold.
It's being young
yet feeling so old.
Remember he's thinking
Of you everyday.
He's sad & lonely
from being away.
So love him, miss him,
And know he is saying
"I just want to hold her..."
& always be proud
To love your SOLDIER.


I cry way to much...

::cough::

Give me the greatness of heart to see,
The difference between duty and his love for me.
Give me the understanding so that I may know
When duty calls him, he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
To fill the time while he is away.
When he's in a foreign land,
Keep him safe in your loving hand.
And Lord, when duty is in the field,
Please protect him and be his shield.
And Lord, when deployment is so long,
Please stay with me and keep me strong.

::tear::

I love these poems, they make me sad but they hit dead on what I feel...

hide under my covers...

Well it's only 8:27 and I have already had a bad day and I am ready to go hide under my covers...

So I think I have decided that I need to have a coming to Jesus conversation with Kristen... and just tell her she needs to step up or get out. We will see how that goes...

I miss Bill...

Therapy tonight... first one...

blah blah blah...

Back to work I guess...

Flooded...

I have had a bad weekend and this day... not starting off so hot.

So I got off work early on Friday and went straight home to my flooded house! The people above us left a sink running and it ended up draining down into our apt. fun fun... So I have to deal with all the different contractors and the "mold" issue.

Saturday was the Anders family Easter party, that was fun. My parents came and we just hung out and talked and watched the kids, it was nice.

Sunday was stressful... Kristen and I were fighting again... shocker right! Then after church and lunch I get this text that Chelle car was broken into. So I called her and for the first time int eh 6 years I have known her I heard her cry. So I automatically jump into best friend and bolt over there to try and cheer her up... so ya... suckage for her. Then we ended up going to her Grandma's house for a little Easter fun. That was fun it was crazy hot out thou... but that's cool better then sitting at home with Kristen!

Then that brings us to Monday...cried all the way to work...then checked my my space and this is what I found "I didn't get much sleep last night. We got attacked yet again. I heard a boom and rocks started falling onto my room. That's close. I was in the bunker wearing my PT pants, no shirt, and the bunny ears you sent. I didn't have time to take them off." I am so scared and just so depressed when I hear thing like this. I just can't imagine my life without Bill in it. I miss him.

We are still counting on June for his R&R so that's coming up.

Life sucks right now...

Well yet another weekend...

Well yet another weekend has gone by and still don't feel rested... what happened to "the day of rest"? I would love to just sit at home and rest on a Sunday after noon that would be awesome! But no... I was up at 6:00am and wide freakn' awake! I guess all in all my weekend was ok... Saturday was Michael and Bearette's birthday party... that was ok as well. I held babies all day long, then I just went to my parents house for the night and then scrapbooking on Sunday...

Ever since I have started to take these new pills I have had a really hard time sleeping at night and staying asleep... which sucks because I am even more tired then I normally am...

life sucks...

Kristen owes me $350.00 and rent is due this week... I hope she can pay it...

Hooray I finally paid off one of my credit cards!!!! Next is the Best Buy credit card!!!

I think I am going to try and start taking Belly dancing lessons with Janice on Thursday nights... maybe we will see :)

I am hungry... mMmMmMm BBQ chip at 8:21 in the morning!

Yup so here's to the next week... we will see how it pans out...

My favorite kind of weekend!

I feel so drained today not sure why... looking forward to this weekend and not doing a whole lot :) my favorite kind of weekend! I have to get my blood drawn Saturday morning and then at 11:00am is Michael and Baerette's birthday party and then home for some sleep! And Sunday is where the fun is! I think I am going to try and go to church and then nothing all day long maybe a bit of WoW if I feel up to it... and after that NOTHING!!!

Well I didn't win the car which sucks... but oh well... it would have been nice to surprise him with that... but oh well... ::sigh::

::cough::

Well that's really it for now...

Good Day... so far... :)

So have I mentioned that I am trying to win a car... :) 104.7 KISSFM is having this thing that if you can get the biggest celebrity to call in you win this really nice car... so I got on myspace and messaged my little heart out... I got 2 replies! I am excited I don't think I will win unless I get a bunch more but still I am so excited!

Also yesterday a new addition to our family was added! Becky and Cody had their 2nd child a baby girl Jolyn Elizabeth! I saw everything the birth and after and she is just the cutest little thing ever! It was so special for me to be invited to experience that as well... child birth is awesome!

Well... that's it for now... I have to get back to my myspace messaging... :)

Life

Why is life so hard...?

I am having a bad day...

I am tired and don't feel good and really really don't want to be at work.

Blah taxes tonight... hope I make it in time...


trying to win a car all morning long we will see...



Blah... Blah... Blah...

Mexico

umm wow so just to sum up my weekend in one word... LAME!

Mexico

So it is official it is only Kris and I going to Mexico this weekend. Everyone else has bailed on us! Whatever I am over it... So Kristen and I have a condo for 6 people and only the two of us... wow sounds like a P-A-R-T-Y!!!! I am kinda excited I am really just hoping to hang out and sit on the beach all day with a few cases of beer and my favorite rum! Maybe a bit of partying Saturday night... but we will see... ;) I am getting out of work at 2-ish and heading home then we are going to shoot out there as soon as possible! We will see... I will keep you updated.

Dentist!

So I had my very last dentist appointment yesterday! I officially have no more cavities! I am so excited... This one was the worst of them all thou. The shot I felt at the tip of my tongue! It hurt so bad. And then during the drilling I felt pain in one of my teeth... wow did that hurt. But I was numb from my bottom lip to my hair line above my ear! I was still numb at like 9:30 at night my appointment was at 4:00... I couldn't believe it! I am still a bit soar this morning at he injection site but not too bad... So hooray for no more cavities!

Darn Doctors!

So the doctor screwed me over! I went 2 weeks ago just for a follow up from the hospital and that was an interesting experience... he is a bit crazy. But then he wanted to see me in another 2 weeks so I pulled out my little planner and the nurse and I made an appointment. So I go to my scheduled appointment and when I get there they say that I never had an appointment! I vividly remember making my appointment and it looks like that nurse just didn't write it in the books! I am pissed I had to get of work early and everything! I couldn't believe it. So I had to re-schedule for next week and leave work early again! grrr...

Just a little somethin'

So Lane's was good last night... kids were a bit crazy, but that's cool... I am so tired thou we did go to sleep till way late...

I have to so grocery shopping tonight after my doctor appointment and then straight home to bed for me!

I miss Bill...

Work sucks...

Man I wish I could just crawl up on the conference room desk and take a little nap... :) If only.

Haha so the coloring took too long... so I give up... haha

::sigh::

This has been the longest day EVER!!! I think the phone has rung a total of about 10 times all day long and I am so tired! I finally got some work about 2 hours ago but now I am done with it... and bored again. I am going to Lane's house tonight to help her move into her new house. I think I have been put in charge of the kitchen... super... oh well what ever I can do to help I will be there to do. :) That's what friends are for and I know she would do the same for me... Then tomorrow I have a doctor appointment and then Thursday I have a dentist appointment and the gym and then Friday I am going to Mexico... I hope... we will see how that works.

Bad weekend...

This weekend was nothing but stress and a little more stress! Friday night I drove down to Yuma and then we went to L.A. on Saturday. The drama started on the ride down... I couldn't get a hold of anyone so I had no idea where I was going once I got into Yuma, which pissed me off that I couldn't get a hold of anyone and then once I did it was this guy I have never met named Cody. So he finally let me into Corey's apartment, where Cody was telling me more drama with Sarah and Jason...! Come to find out I couldn't get a hold of Sarah because she was on her way to San Diego with her cheating lying husband! Whatever... So I just went to bed, and then the next morning everything was going good we got up early and Corey, Cody, and I left for L.A. The drive was fairly simple but once we got into L.A. and all their traffic I let Cody drive to get us to Venice Beach. It took us like 5 hours to get to Venice Beach, we had to turn around so many times and we got lost too many times to count!!! STRESSFUL!!! Once we got to Venice everything we good. We had a blast people watching and shopping and just being there by the beach, it was nice. Then we get a call from Sarah she has news... apparently Jason says that Cody is the one that hacked into Sarah's email and called Jason! Ahhhhh!!!!!! But whatever we didn't say anything to salvage what was left of the trip. But for the rest of the day Corey acted a little weird around him and then he started to act weird... So we finally left Venice Beach and what should have been only like a 30min drive turned into a 1hour and 30 min drive!!! We got lost...again! We finally found our shitty cheap hotel and checked in and got ready for dinner. We went to Bostons for dinner... and that is a whole story in itself! Worst service I have ever gotten in my life!!! Needless to say she was fired that night! So by this time we were all just tired and ready for bed... and that's what we did! The next morning we all woke up early and got ready to meet the guys! (Kyle the Canadian DJ and Clinton the South African Golf pro from our cruise) We finally found them at the Queen Mary and then spent a good hour and a half trying to figure out something to do while I am driving around aimlessly! They finally decide that they want to just go sit down and drink the day away... grrr! This isn't what we had in mind! So we did... it was bad I was so bored and just didn't was to sit in a bar all day long! So we finally decided that we wanted to get tattoos! And I was so excited we were going to this place that Sublime got his big back tattoo at! So we started to on our way and then decided when we were like half way there that it was too far and we had to turn around so then what did we do... we went to the Queen Mary and drank some more! **sigh** When we finally got on the road home it was like 3pm and I had to take them to Yuma and then drive home from there... But Corey decide to talk to Cody in the car with me about the hacking thing! Can you say AWKWARD! So I wasn't happy about that because I asked her to talk to him about that when they got home... I didn't get home till about 12:30am!! I am so freaking tired and still a little mad... Hopefully this weekend will be more fun for me :)

Oatmeal...

So I had kind of an epiphany last night, I decided that by the time Bill comes home I want to be set in a schedule of eating well and working out. All this week I have been bringing my lunch to work filled with health goodies! I also have a good selection of health snacks at work for me to munch on throughout out the day. I have a bowl of oatmeal every morning as soon as I get into work. Even thou I really really REALLY dislike oatmeal, it's good for your cholesterol. :) I have cut down considerably the amount of caffeine and soda I have over a week. I am also going to try and wake up 15 minutes before I really have to get up and do a small workout. I got this workout tape a heck of a long time ago and it's like three 10-15 minutes workouts focusing on three different areas. I also have access to the gym at my apartment. I plan to go at least three times week for at least 30 minutes. I also want to try and start playing tennis with Kristen on Saturday or Sunday mornings. So this is plan, I am a bit excited about it and a bit nervous, I am scared that I wont keep up with it. I would just like to have Bill tell me what a rockn' body I have, like he did when we were dating. I just want him to be proud of me finally taking a stand doing something about my insecurities. And I am sure he would be happy to not hear me complaining all the time as well! :) Well wish me luck!

Crazy Day...

It took me all morning to log into this again... I forgot my user name and password! I know how awesome am I...

Bill posted something on myspace today... he sounds awful. I hope he only has a few more days at Kalsu... I hope. Then straight back to Taji he goes! So it turns out that my tax guys son is in the same town as Bill... what a small world right! Bill says he has never talked to him but he has seen him around. Good stuff.

So my ipod kinda broke the other day... and I went through all this stuff trying to get to work again and then this morning I plugged it in again and did this thing I have been trying since Sunday... and it WORKED!!!! I am so excited. I was so bummed out when I thought that I wouldn't have it for St. Patty's day in Mexico. Hooray!!!!

Hooray!

So it's offical I have jumped on the band wagon! This is what work boredum submits me to! You should be excited you now get to her about the inter workings of my life... and a crap load of drama! Chelle that means you... since you really are the only one that I know on here... :)