My new friend!

This is the newest addition to our house hold, and in case you weren't counting... this is number 3!! Well welcome to the neighborhood, I'll have a fruit basket to you by the end of the week! Enjoy your stay at the scorpion hotel!

Duty Calls

Duty Calls

The time had come to serve his land,
He looked in my eyes and held my hand,
Told me there was something that had to be said,
So I sat there in silence beside him in bed,

"I will carry your picture where ever I go,
And I'll miss you so much you don't even know,
This picture will get me through the good and the bad,
But most of all when I'm feeling sad,

To look in your eyes and forget about war,
And think of the day I'll show up at your door,
To feel the warmth of your sweet kiss,
That sends me into infinite bliss,

To help me forget the bombs and guns,
And the orders I'll be taking from everyone,
To forget about those lonely endless nights,
And all those daytime fire fights,

Not think about looking over my shoulder,
Or that food that by the day will seem to get older,
To forget those stressful day long shifts,
And just remember your sweet lips."

Before he finished my tears started to fall,
He wiped off my cheek and whispered "no more"
He told me be strong and proud of your man,
I'm doing it for you, for me, and our future children,

He held me close slowly calming me down,
Soon his heart beat was the only sound,
I was speechless scared but it felt a sin,
So built up some courage and told him to listen,

"I promise I'll be true to you while you're away,
I'll stay far from negative things people say,
I promise to wait no matter the time,
Days, weeks or years, you'll always be mine,

I meant when I said "Till death do us part",
As long as I live you'll have my heart."

He soon left for the war so far away,
And I've been taking it slow, taking day by day,
Now its been 6 months since my hero has gone,
and days are starting to feel real long,

But I'm keeping my promise just like I said,
And kissing his picture before going to bed,
Keeping him in mind throughout the day,
Standing tall standing proud in all that I say,

Because he's more then just a soldier fighting a war
he's my love, my life and my husband forevermore.
Love you baby!

STRESS!!!!

So I don't think I could get anymore stressed then I am right now. I haven't been able to talk to Bill as much as I used to which makes me sad. But I understand that he is busy and needs to keep his head on track. I just can't wait till July, I can't wait for him to just hug me and hold me. I just can't wait for all the little things people take for granite. I miss him so much...

It is official I am now the state leader for Operation America Rising. Which is a HUGE undertaking! But I just need to make sure that this happens and if that means a bit of added stress for me, then so be it! We have almost got the venue set and once we have then set we should be just fine in everything. Once the venue is set I should be able to delegate more things down to my 7 volunteers and lighten the load from me.

I have been so busy at work! Which is weird, but when I finally have work I have NO motivation at all to do it. So it takes me like 4 hours to do something when is should only take me like 2 hours. Not good... But I'll just blame it on the depression!

I have a therapy appointment on Monday, and then a doctor's appointment on Tuesday. I need to get my dosage of Prozac changed and then I am going to talk to him about me back pains. I just can't handle it anymore. And then Tuesday night I have volleyball, which should be fun. Then no other plans for the week. I will be going to Yuma for Memorial Day weekend. It's Jace's 2ND Birthday! I can't miss that!

OK well I have a million and one things to do right now between work and OAR(Operation America Rising)

Mother's Day!

So I know this is a little late but this is what my family did on Mother's Day...



My mom has been asking for her new Scrapbook room for some time now, so we deiced to make it her Mother's Day present!



We added a counter top along one wall and TONS of storge!



We painted just about every surface my dad would allow us!



We also added a peg board to hang our paper on, now we are just looking like a store!



All in all it came out really good, and I can't wait to scrap in it!

Zen Beans

Just thought I would share my bean Zen Garden... haha this is boredum at its best!

Fashion-gazam!

So I found these shoes yesturday... Aren't they WONDERFUL! I love them!!!

Bill!

A Life Update

Life is slowing moving along, I can't believe that Bill has only been gone for 7 months... it feels like years since I have seen him. I miss him...

Life right now in this moment isn't too bad, I have new friends and some of the best old friends a girl can ask for. But when I start thinking about long term I start getting nervous and stressed out. It's hard for me not to have a plan for my life, and to not know where I will be in a few years. I have no idea and that is terrifying to me. I am a planner I need to plan things ahead of time so I know what to expect, but awesome military life doesn't allow me that privilege.

Kristen will be moving out at the end of July or beginning of August. Which leaves me alone in the apartment for the remainder of our lease, and our lease will be up on September 30. Rochelle has offered for me to move in with her parents, my parents have offered for me to move back in with them, but I am just to unsure of everything... I have so many questions and concerns running through my head at all times about all these different scenarios. If I move in with one of these people, What will I do when Bill comes home from Iraq for good? He has a month leave... do I live with my parents for that month? Do I stay in Rochelle's parents house for that month? How weird would that be... So I don't know... so then I was thinking what if I keep the apartment and re-new the lease... but I don't want to live there by myself... and I really don't want to have to afford to live there by myself.. but I don't want to ask Rochelle to move in because I know she is trying to save money... I just don't know... AHHHHH!!!

Life is too hard I give up...

Well I have a therapy appointment tomorrow with the new therapist, so we will see how that goes, maybe she can help me make a decision... or at least give me the tools to help me make a decision.

I think I have also decided that I am going to start a picture everyday thingy... I just don't know when I will start it...

Is this the last straw?

Jason is in jail... shocker I know!

I am tired... long night last night, I didn't get home about 8:00pm and then watched some TV.

Yay scrapbooking this weekend... I can't wait. And yay sleeping in on Sunday!!!

I can only do so much...

I AM STRESSED!!!!!

I have way too many things on my mind... I just can't wait till things are back to normal.