A Life Update

Life is slowing moving along, I can't believe that Bill has only been gone for 7 months... it feels like years since I have seen him. I miss him...

Life right now in this moment isn't too bad, I have new friends and some of the best old friends a girl can ask for. But when I start thinking about long term I start getting nervous and stressed out. It's hard for me not to have a plan for my life, and to not know where I will be in a few years. I have no idea and that is terrifying to me. I am a planner I need to plan things ahead of time so I know what to expect, but awesome military life doesn't allow me that privilege.

Kristen will be moving out at the end of July or beginning of August. Which leaves me alone in the apartment for the remainder of our lease, and our lease will be up on September 30. Rochelle has offered for me to move in with her parents, my parents have offered for me to move back in with them, but I am just to unsure of everything... I have so many questions and concerns running through my head at all times about all these different scenarios. If I move in with one of these people, What will I do when Bill comes home from Iraq for good? He has a month leave... do I live with my parents for that month? Do I stay in Rochelle's parents house for that month? How weird would that be... So I don't know... so then I was thinking what if I keep the apartment and re-new the lease... but I don't want to live there by myself... and I really don't want to have to afford to live there by myself.. but I don't want to ask Rochelle to move in because I know she is trying to save money... I just don't know... AHHHHH!!!

Life is too hard I give up...

Well I have a therapy appointment tomorrow with the new therapist, so we will see how that goes, maybe she can help me make a decision... or at least give me the tools to help me make a decision.

I think I have also decided that I am going to start a picture everyday thingy... I just don't know when I will start it...