Gone... again

Well he is gone... again. I am already in pieces and can't wait for him to hold me again. I know we are in the home stretch here but I just don't to feel alone anymore. I need him by my side to make me whole. I need him here to get me through the hard times. I need him here to make me laugh when all I wanna do is cry. I need him here to love me.

This leave has been a whirlwind of emotions. We have gone from complete bliss to screaming at each other, but in the end we both come out ok and loving each other more. During this time apart we have both grown so much and all for the better. It was very obvious, but this is what I love about us being so young and so in love. We get to grow up together, we get to learn new things together and experience them together.

My heart and soul is just in pieces right now. This goodbye was much, much, MUCH worse then the first one, for both of us. But we get through it and stay strong. I know that I have to stay strong for Bill and for me.

Bill should be returning home for good (or at least for this deployment) sometime around January. So that will be nice. He will have a month of R&R here in Phoenix, then back to Texas. We are not really sure from there where we will end up. But that's all fun in games for the Army.

So ya... please keep Bill and I in your prayers and pray for a safe return from Iraq. And pray for me to keep it together long enough for him to return safely.

I just want to leave you with this prayer that is close to my heart.

Give me the greatness of heart to see,
The difference between duty and his love for me.
Give me the understanding so that I may know
When duty calls him, he must go.
Give me a task to do each day,
To fill the time while he is away.
When he's in a foreign land,
Keep him safe in your loving hand.
And Lord, when duty is in the field,
Please protect him and be his shield.
And Lord, when deployment is so long,
Please stay with me and keep me strong.